idk how should i start this. suddenly i felt so lost and sad.
this feelings strikes me right after i woke up from sleep.
i felt so tired after i came back from melawat Ain's father.
even now, i'm typing i feel like crying.
it is difficult to carry on with life w/o any one of our parents.
i may not experience it but Ain is still young to accept all this.
but afterall, its faith from Allah.
whatever it is she still have to accept this.
thanks Allah, Ain made to poly.
at least there's something she can be happy of.
the news was conveyed to me when i was busy working.
i suddenly felt so sad for her and worried for myself.
i wonder what will happen to me w/o my parents.
how will she manage her financial.
how she manage the family w/o the head of the family.
URGH! dammit. i really feel so scared if this happen to me.
cause practically and mentally i'm not ready for all this.
i need my parents to be with me all the time.
i realised, i've been rude and a bad daughter to my parents.
i've realised, i have to appreciate them more than be a rude daughter.
haishh...
this incident really knock and bring some sense to me.
seriously, daddy went for his mosque dinner at town area today.
he left when i'm asleep, but somehow or rather i was half asleep.
i heard him going out and sis was advising and reminding him to be careful.
see how panick sis is?
haishhh.. i'm so worried.
just worried about my parents safety.
Ain, what ever it is u still have us. Yes i know its not the same.
we can't replace ur father's place right?
but we as ur friends are ready to help u if or as and when u need it.
we love u babe.
if u happen to read this, we really really love u.
i may not know hows the feeling like loosing a father at ur age.
but as usual, u can share it with me babe.
i really want to bring back colours to ur mom's life.
Insyallah, if i can help, i will. (:
you take care of yourself yea my babygirl?
i love u more than anything. (:
happy 3rd mths me&Edrie. (:
